urg

I got a job. finally. I can make, uh, dollar... several In fact.

anyway, I'm ready for highschool to be over. as much as I'm going to probably miss it, I feel so done with senior year. highschool peaked at junior year and now its just... I need to start my college arc ASAP. I also need a boyf/girlfriend now, I can't take this loneliness anymore, yet I think I may be aromantic. not really sure, but if I ever do get into a relationship during college we'll find out... more to say that I don't think I could be romantic with a guy as much as I could with a girl. girls are just so soft and pretty, and men can be pretty and too, but fictional men are where its at (boromir <3)

anyway, there is this boy I've been kinda crushing on. he's kinda meek, even in his own element, and he's got that 70's sean bean charm with a beak. I honestly just like looking at him from afar rather than attempting to talk to him, yet the universe seems keen on making us constantly run into each other. i'm too tired to explain, but in religion, when I started realizing my little crush, his seat ended up getting moved directly next to mine. thanks, now it's even harder to spare a few glances at him (and he's constantly fidgeting in his seat so he could lock eyes with my instantly and it's joever).

aah, I can't wait to make money. I just want to be able to get into the motion of working and making money for myself until I reach my career goal. I wanna be able to actually buy my friends gifts for birthdays and holidays, or whenever i want.