okay

last time i was posting on here was when i was going through an actual divine comedy of senior year and ap art which i can now look back on and laugh because i got a 4 on my portfolio (if you don't know how ap scores work, a 5 is the highest you can get, so FUCK YOU VP!!!!!!)

im in that phase of reality and unreality concerning hyperfixating on a new show/thing that makes me maladaptive daydream with every activity i do (right now its house md, but more about that later), so im coming back here to journal as a coping mechanism for not being born in the 80s to be an adult in the 2000s era. i always come back to this crisis just like with my jackass era thats semi dormant and got displaced when i got into lotr and fantasy genre, but since i needed a new show to binge i decided hey! i keep seeing this fuck ass cripple limping along my instagram reels who diagnoses hopes and dreams to medical mysteries, aka house md. 

this show basically haunts my youtube reels, and after maybe a year or so of mindlessly watching the clips and being astounded by the out of context scenes, i decided to watch it one sunday evening before clocking into work. a month later and i just started season 6 today.

besides that, i've started college and im loving it so far. it is so freeing to be able to go to class for 2 hours then go home after, my schedule this semester was pretty good besides tuesdays, where i have class from 10am-4pm (3 two hour classes), and in the beginning i was working tuesdays so i would get home at 4, sleep for an hour, then head to work until 10pm. on mondays my english class was 2-4pm, and it was an amazing class (not just saying that because im an english major, which my boss likes to tease me about constantly...) 

anyway, im on winter break until the 21st, and im picking up more shifts with one week being 23 hours, so hopefully i can start making dough again after my hours being cut to only 8 a week and measly $170 checks.